The Long Process of Integration

Wild Entheology

In this episode Kaylee discusses the long process that the integration of our psychedelic trips require. As an example, she discusses what she has been (and still is) going through with integrating a mushroom trip she did February, 2020. Integrating through making changes in your life is not an easy part of the psychedelic experience, but it is the most rewarding. She shares her history of struggling with eating disorders and the messiness of the time since this trip while giving herself credit for all of the growth and progress she has made and celebrating life as it is now.

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As is always the case, psychedelics are not a toy. Please use them responsibly. We can only speak to our own psychological and spiritual evolution, we cannot speak to yours. If you have mental health issues please seek a professional. There is no shame in getting help and you will never be judged for your problems. We wish you the best in life and in mental health.

Integral Entheogens (Ep. 6: William Edmiston) - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h4HjtpfVWfg

Show Notes

• 2:07 - Topic of the day - the long and arduous process of changing your life through integration of lessons from psychedelic trips
• 4:20 - Kaylee's history with eating disorders and the main internalizations that contributed to the development of this problem
• 13:25 - How these internalizations affected romantic relationships and the influence of puberty
• 21:41 - Relationship styles and the effects of these choices - Isolation from women and lack of identity.
• 31:14 - How an emotionally healthy relationship helped in the healing of some unhealthy ideas about herself, but still having the feeling that there was a flaw in her own foundation that needed separate healing
• 33:27 - The eating disorder as evolved to being its own demon, the insidious nature of addiction, and mental commitment to doing it alone.
• 39:09 - Leading up to her first mushroom trip ever. Amazing experience, but a lack of integration lead to even darker times.
• 47:47 - Isolation and identity crisis leading up to the mushroom experience in February. Finding peace and strength through the catharsis of mushrooms.
• 53:09 - The lessons that came through during reflections on the trip
• 59:31 - Ideas for how to integrate these lessons. Not so simply applied to life. Going from open relationship to no relationship.
• 1:13:17 - Learning to be healthily interdependent. Opening up to parents, reaching out to friends, emotionally investing in other relationships.
• 1:22:40 - Developing identity and healing relationship to the feminine through connection with sensuality, intuition, and nature
• 1:33:40 - The wildness of psychedelics and the need to preserve that throughout the medicalization and normalization of them. You are more than your productivity and your problems.
• 1:41:29 - Where she is at now - developing meaningful friendships and still working on growth and healing
• 1:53:08 - A final piece of advice for anyone struggling or trying to change