2nd STEP : whatever you hear (in this case, previous 2 podcasts) REFLECT

SMARTER THAN TRAUMA Podcast

The purpose is to understand how these triggers connect, like a food web. After NWMH'S CBT/DBT's (unthoughtful & lazy facilitation) first & only step of "describe the trigger & use WISEMIND to make the best decision in the moment," the decision was to always confront knowing if you wait, more likely the person or people will not remember. While it's not always comfortable to confront, I assumed doctors, specialists, healthcare systems main objective is to give best care with Hippocratic Oath in mind, especially since they ask for feedback using surveys.
In order to get to a point to understand how to tackle the triggers, I suggest labeling the triggers as audio, visual, audio + visual and tactile (audio+visual+touch). Touch was never just alone in my experience, but is it the same for you if you're experiencing triggers.
Try to count how often if happens & if you have to break up a day into AM/PM or even hours, I found it typical to have multiples triggers/hour, increasing in frequency or intensity. There are other measurements that I'll be detailing further, but I am waiting until I can write notes 100% without any triggers/flashbacks that cannot be flicked away in an instance. Let me repeat. I will continue until I know every trigger that pops up can be flicked away with 100% certainty/effectiveness. Even one trigger can send me reeling, increase chronic pain symptoms & lose any progression since the body is pretty lizard-brain, primordial, "stupid" <---an audio trigger 2x (home & classroom) + a reversal being told, "you think you're so smart," during the worst of YEAR SIX.
What I can definitely report is if you can say their names, it makes it easier, but I will only use those names that you can write reviews on, receive a service or a product or can google review like a school (even though my review was removed in under 10m). Why fear stayed so present throughout the day. The words community are used often, but in reality, the internet makes it harder to forge a true one & with early tech knowledge (~2009), those strategies of designing websites without contact info, are simply bubblin' up.
In the end, I do not have to share this [now], but choose to follow through with this project for 2 reasons. Learning something new is what makes your life better since you can apply that knowledge to situations & share with only those you want to also have that success, but being a school teacher, I know the tidbits or toolkit we acquire after s.a./dv & other forms of trauma have special gravitas & I cannot keep it to self knowing it can help someone diminishes their suffering & speed their recovery.
I do not have to continue progress monitoring & alert anyone who acted in ways to bury the events of a public school 2012-2015 & healthcare systems NWMH beginning 2015 & Aurora Advocate beginning 2021 or 2022. I am not certain about those dates, but able to check my notes both in ability to read, stay organized (hold the through if out-of-sight, out-of-mine & not flashback). There is no suicide presently with the last bout a few days that was dealt with by posting on X ~30 (they fill all spaces & require photos & videos) & practicing reading daily in short snippets & responding with 1-4 words on X. there has not been a 80% reduction in reverberating pain since mid-January creating a greatly diminished sense of constant fear & nerve pain in fingertips, left hip (sitting at desk or to watch TV), right shoulder (typing, using a mouse/trackpad, tapping on devices), fingertip (typing, fine motor, strength when holding things) & overall noise (so I can hear things that assist in safety e.g. crossing street or organization e.g. dropping keys). Overall face pain has been reduced 60% and the need to talk quickly to diminish that pain & the adrenaline associate with ptsd is more & more situational---like movi

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